The time we’ve been given…

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It’s been exactly one year and one month since I’ve written anything on this blog. I left it to start a new blog for personal reasons but have decided to come back here where it all started.

Last year left me reeling and unable to write. Regrets, doubts and and self-condemnation took a hold of me causing me to sink near a level of depression. Even trying to write the words that I so desperately wanted to became impossible.

But here I am, on my birthday, one year and one month since the last blog post, putting down words and feeling right at home once again.

How many days I’ve spent contemplating what it is I want to do, what it is I’m supposed to be doing — who I am. And meanwhile the days continue to slip quietly into the next, a new week begins, and suddenly the page of the calendar gets flipped over to a new month.

What I’m discovering is that life keeps right on moving past me while I’m trying to decide what to do with mine.

While out with my youngest son last week, walking around our favorite bookstore, I shared how I used to be someone and I no longer know who I am or what I want in life, to which my son lovingly stops me and says, “You still are somebody.”

And yes, he is right — I am somebody.

As I enjoyed a day of birthday shopping and a massage yesterday, I decided that instead of trying to find myself somewhere else, maybe I just need to be thankful for the life I have right in front of me and enjoy this very moment for what it is — then perhaps I’ll discover that I’m exactly where I need to be. And if tomorrow takes me somewhere else, then I can go there — but for now, all I really have to decide is what I’ll do with this time I have been given today.

What will you do with the time that’s been given to you?

Blessings!

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5 thoughts on “The time we’ve been given…

    1. Thank you! I think of you often too and have wondered where life has taken you. You have my continued prayers, and feel free anytime to email and let me know how you are. ❤

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  1. Dear Amy, I appreciate your humble honesty.

    I have felt the same many, many times. Often I have wondered if I am wandering aimlessly through this life, if I have missed God’s call on my life, if I am little more than a perpetual disappointment to him. I contemplate things I could or should be doing. But when I am tempted to push my way into some new venture, the Spirit stops me. I think sometimes the truth is that He is doing a work in us we cannot see, that He is sowing His validation in us and teaching us that we are right where we are meant to be – in a place where we simply trusting and resting in Him. He is not any hurry, and it’s okay to appreciate all the good things – and people – He is putting in your path during this season. Clearly, your wise and caring son is one of them!

    Blessings always,

    Cindy

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